I am just sorry that it took me getting to the point of barely being able to function to get into the doctor. That is how much I loathe blood tests. I am glad we are on the path towards getting me back to the real "me" again....at least health-wise. I pray there are no serious underlying problems and have hope that I will again soon be well again.
I also don't feel so guilty about how I have not been able to keep up on everything around the house. It all makes sense now and I'm so glad for that. Now to move into the details and get a plan to get well.
At work, our superintendent dumped a huge amount of work on the staff with only six weeks of school left. Teaching at a private school really doesn't pay in so many ways. Things that occur there would never happen in a public school. Private schools are not what the stereotype tends to be....our students are not from "upper class". We are more like a reform school and have a lot of families with a lot of problems without the resources to deal with it. I'm sure some private schools are indeed the stereotype, but we are not. I hope to move into the public school system. If not, sub-teaching would suffice until I have the connections I need locally. Teaching is wonderful and I have such an admiration for those teachers at the school I work who are doing a great job and are dedicated.
I think an added difficulty is working at the same place I worship. There is a sub-group that has been showing up in many Catholic Dioceses that operates very much like the cultish behavior and tactics you see in Mormonism and Jehovahs' Witnesses, for example. Really very divisive and disturbing to me since I have studied this type of practice, control of behavior, and manipulation within Mormonism. Those who are in it, don't see it and the perception they hold towards any other viewpoint is very warped and paranoid. This group I speak of are known as the Neocatechumenal Way. I was required to attend the "introductory" meetings as part of my own path into the Catholic Church (rather than RCIA since I came into Catholicism during the spring and already knew a great deal of Catholic doctrine) and I had warning flags going off by the 3rd meeting. Very disturbing. Especially considering how our Parish Priest pushes this group on people. It goes to show that anyone can get sucked into something that is divisive.
Sure someone can say that just because I disagree with it, does not make it bad. Agreed. However I am talking about messing with foundational truths that the Roman Catholic church stands upon. This is not done. Liturgy and the sacrifice of the Mass is not to be changed on whit and whim. I do support groups that bring people to a faith in Jesus Christ and I see good in them. What I am disturbed with is this group operating within and causing divisions in a Roman Catholic Parish. I am seeing it happening before my eyes. We actually are attending a different Parish for Mass today because the Priest involved in this is saying Mass at our local Parish and I question things now with his presiding. I need a step back from things directly related to this group and this priest. Thankfully those leaders in this group should leave again in a few months, however they will have left these "cells" behind that do their damage. This is the third spring/summer they have been at our Parish with their recruitment tactics. As soon as they get people, they have them stop attending their local Parish Mass and they attend "the Way" for Mass....which is a Mass that is one departing from basic truths found in our faith. They claim that they do attend one Parish Mass a month, as this is a reaction to increased disapproval towards this very strange group. Freedom lost is scary....it appears very cultish to me.
Well, I suppose I have gone on long enough. This is what happens when one becomes mostly put on rest when dealing with health issues.....lots of time to ponder, and spout ones opinions.
Peace.
