Change......exciting or full of fear?

CHANGE.....I'm not talking about the kind you find under the sofa cushions.

Change is a part of life and life is made up of a series of changes. Actually, our very bodies change moment by moment so you'd think we should be "at-home" with change.

I use to struggle with change a lot. That would be an understatement.....it would freak me out and send me into a tensioned "what-if?" existence full of fear of the unknown.

Change has changed for me. I do attribute it to my relationship with Jesus Christ. Because He is my Rock, I do not fear change that is in His will. Yes, my initial reaction (flesh) is to lean towards "what if"....but then the peace takes over. Change becomes more of a exciting anticipation of change than a fearful event of future, scary/bad unknowns. Even if things don't look reasonable at any time during the process of change, if I am in His will, I know greater blessings will be waiting for me. I am willing to follow along in total faith.

Does this mean I am a brainless idiot? No, I know the difference between God's leading and me "checking my brain" at the door and just acting like an idiot. I also know that my own intelligence can not solve and order my life's path into the best that is available for me. Sure I can muscle through and run things in my own independence. However, I have learned that I am not the best person to be captain of my own ship. (that is God's job)

I have been expecting and anticipating great change. I have felt it coming for the past several months. I have no idea how it is going to manifest but I am starting to see the very tip of it all.....and I'm glad I can only see that much at a time. I'm glad that I am being taught more about walking in faith. Seeing by faith. Reasoning by faith. (which to me means not reasoning and relying on my own knowledge/sight)

Life can be difficult. For example, this past week I have had a week that if I were to type out what has transpired in my family, it would seem unreal. If this past week had happened a number of years ago when I was being led by "religion" and "rules" and trying to earn my way into God's grace through church "obligations", I would have fallen into what a life like that usually brings: Victim Mentality and self talk like "I'm just Enduring to the End". Other nonsense such as that which totally insults what Christ did for me on the cross. How thankful I am that I truly understand and live in a relationship with God rather than a relationship with a religion/church/group. The difference is grace...pure and simple. Again, we human beings get in there with our arrogance and adding on rules and regulations and muck it all up which leads people into false sects of Christianity and into works...works...works. I know that because I use to be one of those people. Back then, I would have fallen into my own human reasoning to deal with my past weeks events. Thank God I am free from that!!! This past week was unbelievable, but with my daily walk and very personal relationship with God, I walked by faith. I was able to praise Him and know that all things do indeed work for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose. That is reality for me.

This all comes back to change. Is change something I fear? Not anymore!!! I know that I am living and walking daily in God's will for my life. Change is exciting. The feeling of change coming on for me personally is like the anticipation and expectation I have when in a roller coaster that is going up, up, up.....getting ready to hit that big exhilarating drop where I throw both arms up in the air and enjoy the ride! In my life and the way I walk in relationship with God through love and grace, the safety bar is Jesus Christ Himself holding me in for the duration of the ride. That is how I let go, throw my arms up, smile, and say WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!