Going Gray

Well, I'm done with it! The bottle....my addiction for the past many years. Hiding the "real me" caused me to turn to dependence on the bottle.

The bottle is my Nice n' Easy dark brown permanent hair color. Now that I am (according to my teachers aid who is also a cosmetologist) 75% gray on the sides, 50% gray on the top, and 30% gray in back (and nearly all gray in the bang area)......it is time to admit that I am going gray.

I'm going to grow it in as far as I can tolerate it and then I'll have to get a buzz cut. Eeeek! I have had really short hair before, but it is not my favorite style. My head tends to look like it is the size of the prize winning pumpkin at the county fair. Not only that, but I realized from looking at photos of my last buzz cut (only about 18 months ago) that I looked like Robin Williams twin sister. Not the young Mork from Ork Robin Williams...more like the funny looking Robin Williams from when he starred in the movie "Patch Adams". Now that I will be mostly gray.....hmmmmmmmm, who will I look like now? (I seriously love poking fun of myself)

So, here I go! I know I will look like a complete idiot when I have a good 2-3 inches of gray grown in and then the remaining hair dark brown below that. It is already between 1-2 inches. I have to find a job before it grows in much more! How insane will I look interviewing for teaching positions when I look like I can't even keep my own appearance looking like I give a whooptie-ding-dong? Life is so funny. Maybe I'll sub teach...........

I am thankful for the gray hair distraction going on in my life. However, I need to get off of my self-centered focus and start looking around and see who needs to feel loved. Who out there is hurting. Who can I help and touch with the light of God...of Christ within me?

I suppose that is a question I'll have to pose to God. He always manages to put the right person in my path at the right time....the very person who I think I am helping, but who is really helping me instead.

Good night and God Bless!